This is the letter I sent to you before Xmas

Nov 11, in the morning. I want to write some meaningful words for you this Christmas.My angel, my all, my very self - Only a few words today and I want to write these words embedded in my desire and hoping for the understanding and forgiving so we could finish what we have left . In my solace and regret I write this music for you to express my feeling toward you and in hoping once day we will meet again., so I can sing this song at our wedding. I think that this song lyrics is the symbolic of my love to you. I feel comfort when I think about you and singing this song.
I have searched for you in my life. (Cm#, B)
Now I found you in my hand.
Please don’t go uh uh uh
Please give me a chance to make it happen
Please give me a chance to love you again
Please give me a chance to love you once more
Please don’t go uh uh uh
I want to spend my whole life with you
And we join hand go around in this world
We will in together forever
We will in together forever
We will in together forever.
(http://www.aboutsaigon.com/ngoclan/forgiveme.mp3)
Why this deep sorrow can our love endure except through sacrifices, through not demanding or mention everything from one another, can you change the fact that you are wholly mine and I am wholly yours ! The pain that I caused for you is also for me too. Now I am free and live the life that you want but you are not around but I think that your existing and your thought keep me going …..
Everywhere I go and I am alone no one greeting when I come or go. This is my life. I thank you for giving the love of life and the meaning of it when I was with you and those feeling I never forget it. Those feeling toward you are real and my love toward you is also real. I am missing you so deeply. I stuck your picture on the monitor so I can see your face everyday. As you said to me at Long Thanh that you will never forget our love, I remembered one of your emails, you wrote that you would be very happy if it is our wedding, if you find the love in your heart to understand and to forgive. It was hard for me also because myself I did not know if I can overcome or not , I just want to cease our pain by stay away. Now almost a year has passed since I came back here that it can be done and I can be free again and I just want just to be with you and only you. Christmas night last year, I drove passed your house at 1 o’clock in the morning but I did not come or call you. It has been one year, time flies so fast are you still NgocLan of the old day Are you still mine ? I need your love …..lonely rivers sign wait for me wait for me I’ll coming home wait for me (Unchained Melody)
Can you imagine that your life is completed without me, are you happy now and how we gratify and indulged each other when we are together. Think about it
We can start all over again we can meet like the first time to eat “ Bo 7 mon” except this time I have only you. As you said “tat den lam lai” the first time we chat. If you want to share your life with me and I promise give my life to yours. If we are 1+1 = 1. We are very good/compatible/matched. Together and we have the same chemistry, and it does not matter what we do and we always find the happiness within ourselves. I want to share the meaning of my life with you and I am assure that our life ahead will be interested, challenged and promised. We can wholly united and we can do anything that we love to do and our life will be completed. Our souls will be not lonely anymore cause we have found each other and our life is filled with happiness. Our love is immortal and infinite.

Ngoclan viet cho anh biet la anh co nen viet thu cho em va anh se rat buon nhung cau chuc cho em khi biet em hanh phuc. Yeu la muon ng yeu minh hanh phuc. Neu nhung ky niem anh viet lam cho em buon hay loi anh viet vo nghia thi anh se khong viet va khong lien lac voi em nua. Cau chuc em va gia dinh mot mua Giang Sinh an lanh nhat. Hon em, I don’t know but I am really missing you now maybe I have no one except you , you are the only person in my mind. Write to me !
Love Always - remain my true, my only treasure, my all as I am yours. ./.tv